I missed the American Music Awards {AMA’s} on Sunday evening, but I had 3 really, really, really good reasons.
Number 1: I didn’t even know the AMA’s were airing Sunday evening. Yeah, the girl who is supposed to keep you informed on all things pop culture isn’t even aware of a LIVE pop culture explosion.
Number 2: I was virtually unplugged all day. Unless you count the nonstop texting convo with the bff ranging in topic from skinny peppermint mochas, therapetuic children’s puzzles, my issues that I like to blame on other people, and the naked mole rat. {Aren’t we so terribly intellectual? You can imagine how riveting our convos are in person.}
Number 3: I don’t really care about the AMA’s.
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Right before bed, I opened my Sunday paper and spied with my little eye that I had missed the AMA’s. I jumped online to get all the juicy deets and was reminded of an old post idea. And, even though this idea has a few cobwebs on it, it’s still totally culturally and AMA relevant.
Imma bouts to go off here people. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
I’ve listened to “Shake it Out” more times than I care to share. I’ve been doing a lot of processing in my head and my heart through writing these posts and listening to this song. I’m emotionally drained from the catharsis, which is exactly what Flo’s referring to in singing I’m ready to suffer, and I’m ready to hope.
I’ve come to a realization that I need help from the Body of Christ to help lift me up out of my mess, chase away the ghouls, and bury that horse in the ground.
That means I need to stop keeping my issues strong and starve them of the things they most love:
Denial
Secrecy
Isolation
To really shake the devil off my back and bury that horse in the ground, I need to inoculate my issues with the things they most hate:
Vulnerability
Confession
Community
Do those sound like 4 letter words to you? Because they sure do to me.
I’m the girl who likes to put on a happy face and pretend everything is just fine. I’m the girl who will talk to you for hours about your issues, your feelings, and your deep, dark secrets. You’ll walk away from a conversation with me feeling like I’m your bff, but you’ll know nothing of my struggles. I won’t ask for help, admit a weakness or share a need.
It’s taken me a long time to fully comprehend the meaning of vulnerability, confession, and community. Looking back over the past few months, I see that God has posted instagrams on the newsfeed of my heart to help me understand my very real need for community.
I share these instagrams with you because maybe you’re like me. You think it all sounds nice in theory, but aren’t sure how to get there practically. You’ve wondered what small steps you could take to create true community in your life.
Here are a few of the small steps I’ve taken.
When someone asks if you need prayer, answer honestly. Don’t talk about anyone else, but yourself. It’s easy to share all the terrible things that are happening to others in your life. While those needs should be brought before the Lord, it’s just as important to share my own prayer needs.
Living in community is an investmentof time. Yes, it takes a long time get there, but it’s so worth it. I must meet regularly with others for the very purpose of developing community. There are natural levels of intimacy that I must pass through in order to achieve true vulnerability. Don’t wait until you’re going through a hard time to begin that process.
Many people only have true intimacy with their bff or maybe even their spouse, but true community is more than one person. It’s a group of people, each passing through different seasons with unique experiences and wisdom to share.
When I take time to know others, it helps me to know myself. When I am vulnerable with others, they are vulnerable with me. These conversations and times of sharing can help me to see what I’ve been denying and keeping a secret.
Living in isolation makes me grow cold, embittered and just plain weird. I need others to point out the lies in my heart. I need others to tell me to put on my big girl panties.
I know what you’re thinking now. What if I don’t like talking about my feelings? Get over it. God created humanity with an instinctual need and desire for relationship. As humans, we communicate through words. If you want to be understood, you have to talk. With words. Simple as that.
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We all have our issues we like to keep strong. If you want to get over them and step into the abundant life that God has offered you, I encourage you to start taking baby steps toward community.
It’s impossible to bury that horsein the ground without community.
Ladies and gentlemen, one last time this week, I give you Florence + the Machine:
Remember a couple of months ago when I told you that Florence + the Machinehad a new album coming out? Well, it’s out. And, it’s amazing. You can listen to Ceremonials in its entirety for free on Spotify right NOW! But, first, ask yourself these three questions:
Do I enjoy an ethereal and angelic sound juxtaposed with modern sensibilities, like bass beats, heavy rhythms, and synthesizers?
Am I okay with lyrics that make me think, or perhaps cry, or maybe even both?